I didn't respond earlier because I'm pretty bad at trying to communicate about topics such as this.

Don't know what to say as I don't think anyone here can truly relate unless one has gone through it themselves. All I can say is don't make yourself scarce around here; in times like this one should take advantage of all of the support systems at your disposal - including this bedraggled band of miscreants that root for the crappiest football team in the world.